Thursday, April 14, 2005

HAIKU KU

Bilakah kan kutemu
Penambat hati
Pengusai rindu

Hela nafas derap jantung
Denyut nadi, mun
Hati kosong

Bisakah kurasa cinta
ya habibi
Singgah semula?

BESDAY DIA

It's medem's birthday this coming weekend. Macam biasa tiap-tiap tahun, kami buat collection RM untuk belikan hadiah dari department kepada dia. Tahun ni ahli dah bertambah... tapi alamak collection mencorot! Klu ambil purata, lebih kurang RM3 setiap sorang, tu pun sebab ada sorang officer kasik RM50 dan sorang lagi RM25... yang lelain tu mostly RM1 je... sedih kan?

Prinsip aku bila bab-bab sumbangan/derma ni, yang penting ialah ikhlas, bukan jumlahnya. Lebih berkat beri RM1 dengan hati ikhlas, daripada beri RM100 tapi dalam hati penuh segala macam rasa negatif. Tapi kalau macam Chetun yang saban hari di'kena'kan macam-macam oleh medem tapi Chetun masih mampu tersenyum dan menjadi penyumbang RM terbanyak, gua respek lu beb!

Walaupun tak conclusive, tapi jumlah kutipan tu sedikit-sebanyak reflects other people's view about a certain person. So now jelaslah di mana medem stands, kan?

Aku kasik berapa? Sori beb aku takde menuntut ilmu kipas-mengipas dan kabel-mengkabel. In application of the earlier mentioned principal about ikhlas, RM sifar. Takpe, sumbangan aku dalam bentuk tolong men-suggestkan dalam mesyuarat badan kebajikan untuk diadakan majlis besday dia, kira okay le tuh.

Thursday, April 07, 2005

PELIK

Hello hello, since when ada mentimun laut di P.D? The waters & beaches are so polluted, I don't think even cockles can survive there.

Tsunami - dead fish on beaches - earthquake - dead sea cucumbers on beaches - mother nature going nuts la.

BACA HATI

Hari ini aku ditanya satu soalan yang aku tak tahu bagaimana nak jawab. Tak, bukan soalan personal aku, tapi tentang seorang staf di department aku. Soalannya berbunyi begini - awak rasa bila A sibuk beritahu kelebihan / keistimewaan yang dia ada, adakah dia cakap dengan hati ikhlas (merely stating facts) atau dia menunjuk-nunjuk (bragging)?

Aduh, camana nak jawab ye? Sesungguhnya mataku tiada power ex-ray (cuma astigmatism sahaja tinggi) yang membolehkan aku mendalami apa yang ada di lubuk hati A.

So OK, I know ramai staf yang dah agak meluat dengar tentang segala macam keagungan yang keluar dari mulut A. Perhaps she is a little more hardworking etc and does have a little 'edge' over her peers. But I have to admit, sometimes she can be an attention seeker.

Maybe it's the way she talks that make people feel she's bragging, especially bila asyik cerita tentang cinta agungnya kepada suaminya yang amat dikagumi, also the fact that he drives a Terrano :-) Letih gak telinga aku dengar tentang abang sayang yang sempurna segala tu. OK, now I'm slightly annoyed, hmmph!

JADI CIKGU

Today for the first time ever, aku jadik cikgu kat ofis. Me & Cheda kena bagi a one-day practical course on an online system used by our department. Participants tak ramai, only 12 orang officers & support staff, and the course was conducted at our multimedia training room.

I had been dreading this day all along, because I'm not very good at public speaking, and my mind may suddenly blank out when I least expected it. Then, surprise surprise, I loved it :-) The mood was gay (not in the xxx sense) with lots of banters & chuckles, and almost everyone were able to sustain their interest till the end of the course (at least no one fell asleep). This is no mean feat for a bunch of non-technical orang gomen from various education level (spm to law degree) and ages (23 to 45) who were made to sit together through a computer system course from 8.30 am to 4.30 pm.

So OK, I'm very familiar with the online system, and the participants are people I know, that's probably why I sailed through. The Training Dept rep asked whether I'd be interested to handle a similar course for staff from our state offices in the future. Hmm... RM100 per hour lecture allowance may not be much for you corporate people, but it certainly is substantial for orang gomen like me. "Let me check my diary..." (wish I have a palmtop or communicator to keep track of my appointments, but that'd be an utter waste coz it'll probably just be filled with family's & friends' birthday reminders hehehe)

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

RESULT EXAM

Hoooooo haaaaaa hooooo haaaaaa.... breaaattthhheeee... I'm hyperventilating. Result exam PTK 2004 dah dibentangkan pada Lembaga Peperiksaan agensi minggu lepas, tapi masih belum di-release kepada kami. Apsal? Apsal?

Dengar khabarnya tak ramai dapat lepasi markah 60, so ada cadangan untuk turunkan passing mark kepada 50. Masa pembentangan, cadangan ni dipersetujui oleh SEMUA ahli Lembaga KECUALI satu umat saja. Siapa? Ahhhh... tak payah sebut pun, hangpa mesti dah tau kan?

Umat ni beriya-iya meyakinkan orang JPA bahawa jangan diturunkan markah tersebut walaupun Dato' TKP dah setuju. Jadi orang JPA pun pegang kata-katanya. Lepas abis meeting, baru dia minta senarai penama, dan tetiba berubah haluan pula, setuju untuk turunkan passing mark... mungkin sebab ada nama beberapa anak buahnya yang tersenarai? Sorry beb, NASI DAH JADI BUBUR. Masalahnya.... KAU TABUR PASIR DALAM PERIUK NASI ORANG LAIN!!!!!!!

Sedih, bengang, meluat, semua ada termasuk terperanjat. Sebenarnya aku tidak berharap sangat untuk lulus kali ini, sebab aku memang tidak bersedia langsung. Hari pertama aku masuk kerja selepas sebulan berada di Jepun, aku diberitahu bahawa peperiksaan tu dijadualkan ESOK harinya. Bayangkan! Aku terkedu sungguh. Mengapa tak ada sesiapa sampaikan pesan mengenai exam ni masa aku di Jepun? Kami bukannya pegi backpacking, kami mengikuti program JPA. Tak bolehkah mana-mana insan ihsan yang telefon ke Unit Dasar Pandang KeTimur JPA, minta mereka sampaikan pesan kepadaku? Walaupun aku tak ada bahan rujukan, sekurang-kurangnya aku boleh bersedia dari segi psikologi, dan terus ulangkaji sebaik mencecah kaki ke bumi M'sia ini.

Aku beruntung kerana adanya rakan seperti Cheti, yang sanggup memfotostat nota-notanya untukku, namun memang aku tak sempat nak membaca semuanya. Aku hampir tarik diri, tapi cuba juga sebaik mungkin. Hari ini aku dapat tahu dari sumber dalaman bahawa markah aku 58, Cheti 56 dan Cheda 42. Samada aku dan Cheti lulus atau tidak, bergantung kepada keputusan akhir Lembaga dan Dato TKP. Tunggu & Lihat.

Cheda, aku amat simpati. Sebenarnya antara kami semua, Cheda yang paling tekun dan akademik. Malangnya kertas ujian yang didudukinya ialah kertas yang digubal dan ditanda oleh umat itu. Susahnya soalan teramat sangat dan hanya sedikit yang ada kena-mengena dengan tugas hakiki Cheda. Macamana nak ukur kompetensi dalam kerja, sekiranya yang diuji BUKAN perkara yang berkaitan dengan tugas hakiki? Aduh mak oiiii.... harus gila dibuatnya!!!!! Apa sebenarnya agenda umat itu bila buat benda bukan-bukan pada kami macam ni? Hanya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui.

Saturday, April 02, 2005

BENGKEL KAT P.D

Just got back from a 5-day Bengkel in Port Dickson. Actually 4 days, since we all bumped a ride from Chetun who decided to go back to KL after the barbecue dinner on Thursday night although we were supposed to check out at noon the next day.

Bengkel apa? Bengkel Gubalan Sukatan & Soalan PTK. Ehm... harap-harap takde la soalan bocor. This is the first time our organization held this kind of bengkel since the launching of PTK 3 years ago. OK, for those uninitiated ones, PTK stands for the revered 'Peperiksaan Tahap Kecekapan', an annual exam necessarily to be taken by us orang gomen for purposes of naik gaji and/or naik pangkat. Supposed to measure our work competency, but don't even get me started on this issue! I'm foaming at the mouth already grrr....

Anyways, we had a great time, me & 3 buddies. We managed to get connecting rooms, and it almost felt like student days again, lepakking in each other's room in between sessions & staying up talking till the wee hours. I had only confided to Chetun about my personal situation, but I am now wondering if Cheti & Cheda had heard about it from other sources, because they (suspiciously) avoided asking me about my at-home matters. Nevermind.

Macam nak pecah kepala memikirkan soalan exam, but in between, we managed to squeeze in visits to the hotel's spa for a little bit of pampering. So OK, the spa is Mustika Ratu & is nothing to shout about, but we had sauna, facial, massage, lulur, mangir & the whole works. The great thing was actually taking time off FOR OURSELVES. My buddies are busy mothers with 4,7 and 5 kids respectively, so taking precious time off like this is good for them.

Anyway, the buffet line is so-so, the rooms are good & the room service is pretty fast. We got to walk along the beach late monday afternoon and it was nice to feel the sand between my toes. I felt a bit sad because I had a few times walked along the exact same beach with him not too long ago, de ja vu (we had dinners at this hotel a few times).

The very same night, we felt the tremors of the earthquake which hit Nias Island. Chetun & Cheti dok sembang on their double-bed, whilst Cheda had gone to sleep and I was almost dozing off in the other room. Suddenly I felt my bed swaying, and having experienced the same thing in Osaka last year, I got up to alert my friends. Funny thing - both Chetun & Cheti were thinking that the other person tengah goyang kaki causing their bed to shake, but both were too polite to tell the other to stop it. When I told them it was an earthquake, both jumped off the bed hehe. We only found out about the tsunami disaster on tv the next morning.

Then we found out that the organizing committee were aware of the quake, and the officer in charge had actually packed her bags and ajak friends on the committee to leave the hotel malam tu jugak. AND THEY DIDN'T EVEN ALERT THE REST OF US, NOR CALL US TO MAKE SURE WE WERE OK. Apa punya committee ni???? Kepala hanguk betoi!

The rest of the Bengkel was uneventful. Lusa masuk ofis balik *sigh*