Sunday, May 29, 2005


It started with MIRC chat. I usually don't give out my handphone number to any chatters, as it is I very rarely chat anyway. But somehow, I decided to give it to this guy who called himself Druid. Then we chatted regularly in YM & on the phone, and as expected, my phone bill melompat-lompat naik la. We now go out occassionally for meals & movies. Tapi bak kata artis bila kena interview ngan Mangga or URTV la, "kami hanya kawan biasa, jangan gosipkan" hehe.

This is such a wierd situation, and he's not the most un-secretive guy I've befriended, but somehow I felt very comfortable talking to him. He's a good listener & it makes me yabber yabber till sometimes I start wondering if he's bored with all that yabbering. We'll see how long he can stand it :-)

OK, here's the wierd situation, we are as different as night and day, in every respect!
(1) He's 8 years younger than me (SBU! haha!)
(2) I've been working for a good few years but he's still a student (final year la)
(3) My field is law & his is computer engineering
(4) My family is close-knit & his is a bit topsy-turvy
(5) I'm a moderate muslim who avoids haram stuff & he's a muslim who's a social drinker (big boo-boo for me! but I'm cool about it, hey who am I to judge other people's lifestyle, right?)
(6) He's tall & I'm short! Yuch!
(7) The big whammy of course, that he's single & I'm divorced *sigh*

So be it. I've always prided myself on being open-minded enough to accept people as they are. As long as they do good unto others & wanna be my friend, I accept them warts & all & I don't mess in their personal life. OK aper?

Anyway, it's still very early in our friendship, and the fact that we rarely meet makes it difficult for me to assess it all. I mean, I still can't read his moods etc, and there's still a lot of unspoken stuff between us. He's going back to campus in about 2 weeks time, and I don't know if we'll be able to continue our friendship then, due to distance & telephone costs (mahal oii!), but I hope we do. I've unloaded some pretty emotional stuff on him, which sometimes I kinda felt sorry about it because maybe he's not ready to hear all that. But he's been nice with advice etc, which I do appreciate.

Meeting him by chance, was a wake-up call for me. All these time I thought I've fully gotten over my grieve, but apparently there are still remnants of it left. He made me do stuff which I haven't done in a while, watch movies, walking in the park, dine out etc. It's nice leaving a sad hermit life. One sure sign of that is I got through my ex's birthday on 28th May with absolutely no tears :-) World, here I come (again)!


Last post was on 14th April. Wow, 6 weeks, that's a long hiatus! So many happenings within that 6 weeks, wish I can write about all of 'em.

Let's see... on 17th April, me & a bunch of people flew to Miri to attend a court hearing. I'm the officer in charge, and the rest of the bunch (including Cheti) were to be witnesses on behalf of us the plaintifs. We were there for 3 days 2 nights. It was kinda nice, with good company. We met up with our district officer, who drove us around Miri looking for buah salak & beras bario :-) We also had a nice seafood dinner, which was so damn f*cking cheap! Ikan bakar, udang, ketam, daging, sup ekor, sayur (for 4 persons, including drinks) plus one tapau nasi goreng. How much? A mere RM75. I wanna go again! Oh yeah, the defendant was at the court with her lawyers, dengan muka sungguh tak malu, gi duduk sebelah Min. We had time for only one witness to be called, and the case is adjourned till early August.

Other happenenings weren't so nice, and are in fact pretty devastating. We got our exam results. Yes, the same exam I was bitching about in an earlier post. Came as no surprise that all three of us (me, Cheti & Cheda) didn't get through. Yeah yeah, can take again this year, but it's so f*cking frustating to be doing something over & over again.

About 4 weeks back, one of our staff lost her dad to sakit jantung. Many people came to ziarah her place in Selayang right up to kafan time, alhamduliLlah. The YDP Agung & his consort also came, turns out he knows one of the deceased's sons quite well. She's still in mourning till today, still looks melancholic most of the times, not the happy & becok person she used to be. I hope she finds her peace soon.

At around the same time, Chetun's mom also succumbed to a stroke, which left her paralyzed on the left side of her body. Although Chetun ramai adik-beradik (10, I think), the burden of taking care of her mom, both physically & financially, fell onto her shoulders. Don't ask, long story. Banyak sungguh ujiannya.

What else ye? Banyak sangat, malas dah nak tulis. Lain kali je la hehehe :-)